One of my major goals in Korea was to start finding good, solid, genuinely kind girlfriends again. People who didn't just say they were there for me, but really were and proved it with their actions. You see words hold very little meaning in my book. I'm all about putting your money where your mouth is, and so actions mean a thousand times more to me. Especially in the face of adversity, that's when you truly see the people who have your back. Well after a lot of praying and moving to a country across the world, I have somehow started to let people fill that place in my heart again. This ability to let others in now makes me love my good friends at home all the more as I can let them rightfully squeeze into that tight and uninhabited place also.
You see, there have been great friends here in Korea who have fought for me and loved me inside and out. As to be expected there are also friends who are as phony as the plastic surgery junkies I see walking around Gangnam every week. But somehow I am learning how to spot the ones who deserve a place in my heart, the ones who are honest and good-hearted; allowing me to trust them. I am gaining more confidence in myself and my ability to move forward with successful friendships, and feeling good about the choices I am making in this time in my life. Still, there are days I think back to the pain that I have experienced due to 'best friends' that once were in my life, and I will put a wall up towards people I don't need to do this for. But overall, I'm opening up and shutting out those fears and doubts that cloud my mind when it comes to the word 'friends.'
God placing me in Korea has helped me to do this, and God-willing I will continue to see the pro's of having close 'friends' again.
I am so proud of you! I thank God daily that this time He has you in South Korea is a time of growth, stretching, self-discovery and learning! You have a spot in my heart and in my life as a dear close friend who I can trust and confine in!
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